Okay…
Yesterday, I went to my first class in Screenwriting with
Madeline DiMaggio. It's a really fine group to work with,
and I'm not just saying that because I think they might
read this. Everyone there was a good writer, which really
made me…nervous. I was shaking like a leaf from head to
toe. Every time I get up to speak, I shake all over, too.
I never hold my paper. The crinkling noise drowns out my
speech.
So…
We go to this guy Michael's house, and he's really nice,
and he's really cool, and he's really a neat freak! He
makes us take off our shoes. I think the bloody scab on
my toe where my sandal strap hit it is glowing neon. Michael
places a napkin carefully under my saucer before he puts
my cup on the saucer. I feel like telling him, "This does
not instill confidence in my abilities!" I guess neatniks
can spot a messy eater from miles away. It doesn't help
that I have a shelf built into my body where all my cake
crumbs reside. He is very sweet in allowing us into his
home though, and it is very clean, which is a word that
occasionally finds it's way into my vocabulary.
Then…
We introduced ourselves, and I am dumbfounded. Not only am
I an alien, messy person, I am also in with PUBLISHED authors
and people who NOT ONLY have degrees, but they have taught
stuff - like PHILOSOPHY. One woman says she is weaning
herself off watching the NEWS for FOUR HOURS every night. "I
read the comics," I say. I think I should pull out my goggles
and hunting cap. I am an alien. I feel my knees joining
my jumping, jiggling hands; then, the instructor sits down
next to… me. I want to run out the door, but I take out
my checkbook and make a commitment, so I can't leave. All
of my nerves are shouting in protest, "YOU DON'T BELONG
IN THIS GROUP!"
But…
I get up and get another cup of coffee and stay. I tell Michael
I feel alien. Then I can't remember whether his name is
Robert or Michael. I smile and talk to two women and forget
both their names right after they tell me. I feel like
the woman who says, "Hey, Sam, was it your brother who
died or was it you?" Ms. DiMaggio starts her class oblivious
to the jumble of neurosis sitting next to her. Each person
is as good and as completely different from the next as
could be possible. We have Mary Magdalene's tale as told
by herself, kind of like that King Arthur story told by
the lady of the lake, then a powerful true story about
a suffragette who was our first congresswoman, followed
by a story about a medium. Not the kind in the road, the
kind that "channels" dead people. I liked the Cancer in
the story, but the group decides the Cancer had to be cut
out. Then comes an exciting tale of war and intrigue about,
Stanley, the reporter who found doctor Livingston, and
Theodore, the Emperor of Abyssinia. I keep thinking; he
should change that name, Theodore, because it just reminds
me of the chipmunks, but he can't. His story is about real
history. A woman gives us a Sci-fi TV show episode, which
was tough to get into because I don't watch the show, but
after I finished her story, I wanted to see it. We had
another Sci-fi story with a war in it. It is so riveting;
I feel like one of the bolts on the tank. I am in it! Madeline
says, "Who'd like to go next?"
Mine…
I present my story, which isn't even in the right format.
I only have five pages. Everyone ducks their heads down
and frowns reading. Several people turn pages over, and
then go back to read the previous page again like they
are very confused. Only one lady is laughing. Everyone
else looks like they have just been force fed mud. It's
taking such a long time. The class looks so…mad.
Madeline asks, "What is this story really about?"
Everything gets quiet while I listen to the blood pounding
in my ears. In my head I think, 'I don't know, I don't know, I don't know!'
My hands clench in my lap. "I'm really bad at ferreting out a story," I
say.
"What is the beginning, the middle and the end," Madeline says.
Oh, how embarrassing. It's that awful that there is no discernible
story line. "It's the story about a, about two, or four roommates that uh,
live in the same place, the same apartment. One set, one couple is getting
married." I stumble all over trying to explain.
"Where is the apartment?" Madeline says.
"Silicon Valley," I say.
"Too bad it wasn't New York."
Oh, damn! I think. I didn't choose the right location! Damn!
But I don't think I can write about New York! She rips up the fledgling
script in front of my eyes, pointing out all the glaring, missing info and
lack of interesting topic. She does this…nicely. I don't know how she does
that. Then she releases me to the group.
Group…
They go ape. They tell me they want the whole apartment to
blow up. They want knock down drag out fights. They rewrite
the whole thing in front of my eyes. In pieces. I just
have to go home and glue them all together and make them
seamless. That's all. I think we had a very diverse group.
No one really has had a story that was anything like anyone
else's. Then the very Hollywood looking woman hands out
her pages. This woman looks like if she was at a party
with Steven Spielberg and they bumped elbows, he would
talk first. This woman who just appears so, polished, so
savvy, so self assured, so natural, so luxuriously pretty
says, "This is a comedy about a woman who is going to have
her Mother arrange her marriage." Two comedy weddings in
the same class? WHAT? And her story is funny. Her story
is so funny; I'm wiping my eyes. I'm giggling; I'm holding
my stomach. I'm laughing out loud. Her story is obviously
going to sell. My story is left over wet rice on the sidewalk.
Not even the birds will eat it.
Just…
I just have to go home and shove all the excellent suggestions
they gave me and push my script back together, that's all.
Then I have to watch this person who is a really good script
writer tell her story about - a wedding - make everyone
laugh - hard - each month. So Madeline turns to the guy
with the delicious looking eyes next to her and says "What
about you, did you bring anything to share?" And the guy
says, "I didn't bring anything, but I am working on a story
and I want your help." We all lean in, on the edge of our
seats. My mind is screaming, Pick me! Pick Me! I CAN DO
IT! He looks so tender and so comfortable with himself,
like a warm teddy bear right out of the dryer. His gray
socks look perfectly suited for a script writing class.
And I listen to what he wants to do, and I make a suggestion,
and this is the exciting part…HE WRITES IT DOWN!
I take a deep satisfied breath.
Okay.
I can do this. I can write something. I will come every month
just to listen to parts of scripts, and I'll love it. Well,
I won't love the beating I'll be getting, but I'll love
the stories.
Till Next Time. |